It's Still You

You memories I want to fade

Your name I want to forget

Those smiles that I need to fake

Just to hide the tears that might flow away

Days, weeks and months passed

I still haven’t move on from the past

Still feels the pain in my heart

Because I thought our relationship would last

Maybe its still you I want

My prince charming in disguise

Its still you I’m in love

And it’s you who broke my heart

The pieces that was shattered

In my mind, I was broken hearted

But still I’m in luck at this moment

Because I experienced love though it’s not forever

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Secret Love

Dry those tears of sleepless nights

Your picture always flashing in my mind

I want to tell you how it hurts sometimes

To be treated as a friend by the one you love

Can’t help my heart from beating fast

Can’t remember when or how it starts

Seeing you walk towards from where I stand

Giving me a “hi” and a friendly smile

Sitting beside you is a heaven like

Want to speak out the words in my heart

Keeping it for so long is so hard

A secret that will tear our friendship apart

I know that someday you’ll find out

These feelings of mine that won’t fade out

Always looking for the right time to say it

I love you my friend till the last breath I take

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When love starts and ends

The spark of your eyes that glitters the sky above

The curve you put in my lips whenever I refused to smile

The warmth of your hands that holding mine

Your laughter like a rhythm that sings in my mind

We planned things for the future

Without an assurance what tomorrow will bring

You are my dream, turned into reality

You gave a hand when I fell deeply

Dark nights, waiting for tomorrow’s light

To shine upon me, smiling to the sky

A hope of getting you back again

Foolishness, I see in sight

Love, starts with a face of happiness

Love, ends with a shadow of loneliness

Great rain falling in today’s misery

A rainbow will ascend in tomorrow’s bliss

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~end~

Away for a lifetime

Time passed like a bullet that strike

Still fresh in mind what happened that time

Confused yet willing to understand

To the things that meant to end for a lifetime

Goes with time, my heart start to mend

Still can remember the feelings we shared

But I resist having you in mind

Thinking it would just a waste of time

I do miss you everytime I’m alone

Thinking if it would still matter to you

Long road I want to run

Just want to move on from time to time

Big smiles you create when you’re with her

A pain in my heart that is watching

You both glimmer with joy of togetherness

Thinking that it should have been me 

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~end~

Love Remains

Time had passed but my love remains

It aches in the heart because I still cannot forget

Many have told that I should move on from you

I want to but the memories keep on rewinding so

Always thinking about our past

 Knowing it will just hurt me even more

Because in the past I felt so happy

And those memories cannot be forgotten ‘till forever

I made choices by what my heart desired

I love much without thinking of goodbye

Fairytales are only just in the movies

Because it is in reality where our feet stand

Our love started with a mistake

Many things in the past I’ve regret

But you are to me is always an exception

That love so true, but so painful that end.

~♥~

Valentines Day

~♥~

Couples wearing red while holding

A crack in my heart that is watching

Their lips smiling with no end

A love they thought would last forever

What’s with Valentines Day anyway?

14^th day of the second month of the year

Why do lovers give presents and flowers?

Things that cannot bind their hearts forever

Many people are dying to find a lover

Wrong decisions are easy to make

But a broken heart is so hard to fix

So easy to love but so hard to move on

What’s with finding love if it not true?

Giving promises and just left it broken

Giving all your love and get hurt in return

Sometimes love wont really last in the end

~end~

Wish you Regret

Words that should be said

Left unspoken in the mouth of the broken

Left unsaid until it becomes forever

Too late to make changes

Regrets follows in just a minute

Things left abandoned and undone

Cannot change what had been done

To make things better before it’s gone

Tonight I had enough

Cause you leave me no choice but to end it up

Promises that you leave broken

Didn’t try anything to bring it back together

You leave it shattered in the heart of the foolish

In just a flash, it makes me hard to believe

How everything becomes nothing

Heavy rain pouring with no end

Just like a song that breaks in the middle

We started it and didn’t thought of ending

An obstacle that wipes it all over

A pain that holds a heart ‘til forever

Grief and heartaches that’s been left

Flooded all over in my heart that been shattered

In your eyes I want to see and witness

I just want you to be sorry and regret

To the things that had been ruined completely

T_T

You're unfair.  You left me and Im still holding on.

It didn't equals out.

The Ending

Every lovestory has an ending

But not all ends with a happy ever after

Love brings happiness but when it ends

It brings a pain and it leaves a scar

In the movies I’ve seen

It’s so romantic how Romeo fell in love with Juliet

But their story ends tragically but still they’re fortunate

Why? Because they died for each other

I wish I could bring back the past

And if I can, I will go back to the day we broke up

I shouldn’t say the word Yes

I asked myself, was it a mistake to let him go?

I thought after that day nothing will change between us

But I was wrong, everything changed including him

I want to shout, I want to scream

Just to free from this pain

It’s now clear in my mind

That this fairytale of mine is finally over

It’s the reality that I must accept

A reality that I must overcome

A new year means a new life to me

I will start a new life without him

I will move on and leave all the heartaches behind

Now it’s the end of the story we once cherished

~end~

Hard To Let Go

Still counting the days, just the same as always

Same big old sky, vivid light shines above

Nothing really change except the fact

That you’re not here with me

Waking up late in the morning in the same old bed

Still doing old stuff, still facing reality

But then I realized

It’s not the same anymore

You left with a promise

A reason why I keep on holding

I said its OK, that I’m going to be fine

That everything will back from where it started

 I’m afraid

That just like the weather you might change

 And when that time comes

I don’t know when to start again

 

~end~

With You

Cute smiles, sweet laughs

Things we usually do

My head in your arms, your shoulder in my back

A comforting place to be with you

Silly talks, corny jokes

The things I miss when I’m alone

My name on your lips

A rhythm that sways me on beat

Soft kisses in your plain cheeks

Started blushing when I throw a kiss

Funny giggles you always create

Like a song that embrace me in sleep

But you left and I’m abandoned

And I’m really stupid for thinking that you still love me

Because if you still do

I won’t feel this kind loneliness now. . . .

~end~

Moving On

Closed eyes, tears began to fall

Tired of thoughts that I could bear this all

Weary in pretending everything’s alright

Leaving me no choice but to move forward

I don’t know how to start

This mending process of my heart

I keep myself busy sometimes

Just to forget someone for a while

I know its hard for not looking back

And it’s my first step of moving forward

Like a river, time flows swiftly

Giving my heart enough space to be healed fully

Yes, I know it’s impossible to forget

But I realized it’s not about forgetting

It’s about accepting and forgiving

That should reign in every heart that is broken

Emotions I inserted in words

An art of expressing out myself

Words of my heart was written

In this poem I wrote with feeling

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~end~

HEARTBREAKS

Our memories is starting to become dust

and the wind of time blows it away from us.

There are many reasons why lovers split apart

but one thing for sure it leaves a broken heart.

Its hard to accept what reality is.

A reality that there's no way for you to be together again.

Hope that someday i will be OK.

Because you hurt me and you don't even noticed it.

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~end~

THE FLOODED HEART

The tears that didn't come out from my eyes,

flows badly in my heart and it is now flooded inside.

Many have told me to evacuate, to move on,

so i can save myself from drowning.

To move on is what i feared most

but i think it is the best way to end this sufferings.

I should leave the important things, the memories,

just to lessen my baggage.

The hard thing about moving is that 

you cannot go back again from where you came from 

but go on and live a new life with no heartaches from the past.

I don't cry but it doesn't mean that I'm strong,

it is my heart that is weak.

Not my eyes, but my heart that is FLOODED.